I get up, I go to school, I get out a couple nights a week, I do my homework, and I come home. It's a pretty boring existence, but I seriously have no complaints at all. I'm happy living like this, happy for the first time in a long time. I'm glad I made it back to school. Even though I don't have many (ok...any) friends there, I enjoy the time I spend there. I'm working towards a goal, which is something I haven't done in a long time. My life has purpose for once , and even though it's nothing spectacular, I'm glad to be working towards something.
Ok, so what's been happening lately? Mom lost her job because her boss is a dick, but she starts a new one tomorrow where she has to wear her grown-up clothes every day so it's all ok.
Timothy moved out in November, the same month Daisy died. In fact, he moved out 1 day before she died, which was sudden and heartbreaking. It's the reason Holli is so much worse now. She lost Timothy and Daisy pretty much the same day. It's not long for her either, but she'll be with Daisy soon, so I have no right to be angry or upset about it.
My parents divorce was final January 7, 2010. A new year, a new beginning. She got a bit too close to her friend Todd in my opinion. She wasn't completely truthful (and still isn't really) about what their relationship was and what it really meant, which pissed me off. If she wanted to be in a relationship, that's ok, but don't tell Todd that you're a couple, and tell your children that you're just friends. That's not fair to anyone.
Timothy moved back in about 2 weeks ago. He left his girlfriends house and really didn't have anywhere else to go. So mom took him back. I don't think she's being completely serious about her relationship with him either. Do I think they're more than just friends right now? No. Do I think they both intend to one day in the near future get back together? Yes. I must admit, he seems to have changed. He drinks about 1-2 days a week now, and he isn't really mean when he's drunk. However, I firmly believe that without help there is no way he will ever be sober, and it's only a matter of time before he's back to being in his own ways.
My Grandma owns a house that she rents out. Her renters just moved out, after destroying the place, so after the renovations, Timothy plans to move in there. Nobody is in a big rush to get him out of our basement. Not the adults, I should say. Sometimes it's hard being the only person in our little microcosm who sees things clearly and without emotional cloudiness. I would speak to her, but it does no good, so for now I'm just along for the ride. I will say this though, it's not as bad as it was before, and I tolerate living with him just fine. As long as it is a short-term situation.
I've decided that as long as I get into Mount Union, I will start going there in the fall. I'll elaborate more on that as the situation progresses...right now it's in the very beginning stages.
Renee's going back to school...but it's pretty much the same story. I'll explain more as it unfolds, as she hasn't talked to anyone at Brown Mackie yet, where she plans to go.
In the mean time, I'll continue working towards my degree in English literature and I'll continue to move with the current to see where life takes me.
Love & Literature,
Natalie
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